Tomorrow is going to be so rough. I’ve been feeling a bad cold coming on, so I skipped the gym tonight. Along with bailing on that, I haven’t done any homework. I have a lot of reading to do for Biology, three chapters last time I checked. I’ve also got to find some time to get a good work out in. Have to stay motivated.
So, if I want to get to my UGW, I’m going to have to lose just under 30 pounds. I want to reach this by May 21—a year after my high school graduation.
My senior year, I got pretty damn depressed, and somehow I managed to gain 30 pounds without even noticing (I smoked a lot of weed). On my graduation day, I came to the awful realization that I couldn’t fit into all but one of my dresses, a loose, grey, dull and boring baggy little number. I looked just how I felt.
A few weeks after graduation, I got the news that I’d developed a wheat intolerance, just as I was about to leave for five weeks in France. I cut wheat out of my diet, and in France my diet changed even more drastically. I ate vegetables every single day. My portion control was on point.
I returned to the States and found that I’d lost 15 pounds overseas. Within the next few months, I lost 15 more, just from diet alone.
Losing the next 30 pounds is going to be a lot more difficult, though. Cutting wheat out of my diet practically made the weight fall off of me, but I seem to have hit a plateau, and I need to kick my butt into working out more, and always eating healthy (That means no taquitos with your boyfriend, Kira).
Reaching my UGW of 136 by May 21st means losing around 2 pounds a week. So here’s the blog, I guess.
So I made my last post in October, and since then I’ve lost maybe five pounds.
Some days my confidence is fine (usually when my hair looks nice), but that’s not enough for me. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin every day.
I have turned a new leaf though. I’m at a new school, in a new city. I’m five hours away from anyone I know, so I have a lot of time to work on myself. My school has a fantastic gym and it’s easy to eat healthy here.
By the end of the semester, I’d like to have lost twenty pounds. I have to weigh myself at the gym tomorrow, but we’ll see where I have to get.
I’m done feeling sorry for myself.
Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to grab it by the balls and make it mine. Tomorrow I turn a new leaf.